17.8.08

quickly

i have had about... mmm zero time to write anything within the past month. the past 2 apostle weeks have been very demanding. good and bad. exhausting, yes. but beautiful? mhm.

one very powerful thing for me:
i have found myself as a woman.
through many many things, i finally realized it.
and i have come to finally accept and be ok with what i truly desire.
i am learning to not be embarrassed by what i feel like i am made for.
i cant let myself...confine myself. i cant let myself think that i am just set in my artistic nature. there are millions of facets of me.
i know what i want.
i am still embarrassed to say it. but here i go:
i want more than anything to be a wife and a mother.
and now i have to admit it to myself.
i have to not be embarrassed by what i feel like i am MADE for.
i am nurturing. i am accepting. i am loving. i take ultimate joy in loving others, in serving those closest to me.
i am made to be a wife and mom. i am excited to be a wife and mom.
i want to be a wife and mom.

and i know that i am ready.
i am ready.
its crazy.

1 comment:

kahte said...

this makes me smile. :)