I am a combination of things that i have always readily been able to admit that i am, and things i have always been afraid of admitting to myself that i am.
I am admitting truths that i fear. and through that, i see ways in which i must shed layers of myself that i no longer need. or maybe never needed to begin with.
I don't want to be stubborn anymore. it is a barrier between me and the ones i love.
I am still determined and driven, i have high goals, and i will obtain them. But i finally see how my goals have so much less to do with "me" and more to do with the relationships around me; how i need people desperately.
I see ways in which i have been humbled by this summer, and ways in which i need to make sure i stay humbled.
I went and talked to a financial advisor today. I have to start paying for school and absolutely everything myself. I need to get responsible, now. i am an adult. i need to continue to grow in being self reliant this these ways.
I went to the counseling center today and became a weekly client of my therapist. I have to recognize that i need assistance a lot of the time, i need guidance, i need to learn to be ok with relying on others.
Things are going to be ok. this is such a scary time in my life, but things will be just fine. God has his wings stretched over me. I know i am protected. I know i am growing up. I am thankful and so humbled. Thank you God.