I am stunned at myself right now. I have never felt so overwhelmed with happiness and tears all at once! i recorded the song as soon as i wrote it, and i'm listening to it right now. and my hands can hardly type because i am laughing and crying all at once.
I guess that my whole being is just recognizing what has spurted forth from me into the form of a song.
I dream heavy dreams every night, and i think that my subconscious mind must just run crazy trying to process everything that i think, or don't think, about during the day. It is crazy how our brain is doing so many things that we don't even realize.
I think that my deepest feelings are really just ringing out through the song i just wrote. Its crazy how it is effecting me!
This summer, a lot of people told me that i am poetic, which i have never thought of myself before. I mean, i love poetry, and writing lyrics and poems, but i have never thought of myself as "poetic" in how i think or speak or anything. But i think this song is helping me realize that perhaps i can speak most clearly in an abstract and poetic way. At least, i am understanding myself better through my own writing. I really just suck at fully expressing myself when i try to speak in an orderly way. So song writing is a good way for me to convey all that i am feeling, me thinks.
Anyway... i wrote a song tonight. And it is really special.
an eyelash just fell on my hand. i made a wish with it.
My goofy roommates just got home from going out. They are so cute and funny. I'm glad they had fun. And i'm glad i didn't go, so i could write, have alone time, and just be.
i'm going to save this song for the right time to release it.
I am feeling really happy, free, confident, calm, peaceful, joyful, and vulnerable all at once at the moment. it is well with my soul.