I danced my bootie off last night at my friend's wedding reception and today I feel exhausted and soooo introverted. Also, I had to resist with all my might to not write a huge long blog about how suddenly surprised I was to realize, at the wedding, that most of my friends are in serious relationships and I am way lacking in that department. I also realized that I was one of the shyest girls there (not helpful when realizing it would be nice to have a date or a boyfriend or something). One of the reasons I love dancing so much is that you don't have to talk when you dance. I am very timid when it comes to talking. I think I just am more of a written/visual communicator, and probably a physical communicator too. I am a touchy person but I am also very timid and am fickle so I kinda shy away from that sort of interaction with people other than very best friends.
Anyway, today I mostly just want to be alone or, if I had a boyfriend, I'd like to be with that imaginary person. So I decided, I should just go to the movies by myself. And I'm going to go see a romantic movie to further my mood of "introversion/feeling a little left out of the romantic side of life." I have been wanting to see Bright Star for awhile now so here I go, on a date with myself. I'm sure I'll cry a little. Not out of self pity for lacking love, but because I love love and seeing people in love, even actors pretending, makes me happy to the point of tears.
also, I love Ben Whishaw.
UPDATE: I actually ended up taking a 3 hour long nap, sleeping through the showtime I was planning on going to. I woke up briefly and thought, OH get to the movie theatre now! But I was still exhausted and realized I might as well save a little money by not going right now and soak up sleep when I need it. Also, I woke up feeling very very lonely so I thought it might be bad for my mental health to sit through a beautiful movie about love in a groggy moody state like the state I was in when I awoke. $10 saved. And protected myself from becoming more lonely than I already felt. This too shall pass.