Ok, I'm feeling pretty down as of the past few days. Probably because I don't have any work for the next few weeks and I feel a little unfulfilled. I could start searching for babysitting jobs to tide me over until there is more sculpture work to be doing in the studio but I just don't feel like I am living to my full potential if I just keep going back to babysitting. I mean, I'll take whatever is offered right now because I am really scared I won't be able to pay rent at the end of the month. But beyond what I am offered, I really need to be searching out legitimate jobs for myself in the art world.
I am going to go to the career center at my old college today and talk to them about opportunities for graduates. And I need to go to the Financial Service and see if I can get my loan payments as low as possible...uhg.
I want to grow up. I want to be making accomplishments. I want to be proud of myself. I want to know that I am putting my all into living, not just bobbing along.