30.9.10

BIG decision: Within the Month, I'll be a Full Time Artist


I have been having a really rough month or two.  It has just been a crazy time of transition and huge change in every area of life.  There have been hard things, and there have been amazing things.  But with both types of experiences, major decisions have had to have been made.  And major decisions are not easy :)
Right now I am juggling quite a few jobs.  I'm not making a ton of money, but enough to live off of.
I am...
1.  an illustrator
2.  a blog designer for Freckled Nest,
3.  a jewelry designer (and I just made my first big wholesale sale!  My stuff will be popping up somewhere in Asia!)
4.  a musician:  with my band and solo
5.  a  nanny.
6.  Oh, and sometimes I am an artist's assistant for a big name in Seattle/the U.S. art scene (And I get to go on CRAZY adventures like driving a 6,000 TON sculpture from Seattle, WA to NY, NY in 4 days! Video of us installing the art: HERE.  video of the drive from the west coast to the east coast in super speed:  HERE!)

Now, lately my life has come to the point where I am having to nanny a lot, and in my off time, I have to choose between pursuing my actual careers and passions or having friend time & me time.  What I am realizing is that I should not have to be choosing between those latter things.  Relationships and taking care of myself should be first.  My dreams, my goals, my passions, my truest callings should be high on my priority list.  All things lead to the fact that nannying is no longer benefiting my life, rather, it is suffocating me.  I no longer need it to maintain financial stability.  And right now, with the way I have to work my actual career and life around sporadic nannying, I feel like all peace is being drained from my spirits.

Well, I just put in my 2 weeks notice for my nannying jobs.  I have been feeling really guilty about quitting because it IS such a relational job.  And I feel like parents depend on me a lot to keep their life running the way they want it.  But, thanks to miss Karin, (who I live with) I was reminded today that I shouldn't feel so guilty to the point that it prevents me from doing what is best for me.  I shouldn't just sit in situations that once were perfect for my life, but now are sucking the life out of me.

So here I go.  I have been out of college for a year and a half, and now I am fully diving into pursuing the arts.  I will be utterly and completely a full time artist.  Dudes, this is so scary.  Like woah.  But I have faith this will all work out.  Sometimes you need a good kick in the ass because of major confusion and hardship to make you realized, you DON'T need to live in an unhealthy situation anymore.  And you always have the choice to do what's best for you.  That choice of course, can be very hard.  But worth it.

I have a choice.  And I am choosing to become a full time artist.  Here we go.
Oh, and wish me luck! <3

18 comments:

Amy T Schubert said...

OMG so so excited for you.... and a little bit jealous :)
Can't wait to see what you come up with!
xo

Allie said...

WOWWWWWW!!! I'm so happy for you! Can't wait to chat more about it in person!

Sara Kate said...

Allow me to cue up a little Bette Midler ...

Did you ever knoooooow that you're my heeeroooooo?

Seriously, girl, big congratulations!! That's crazy exciting!

andrea said...

Woah is right! That's so exciting!

Ashley Reynolds said...

So exciting! :D :D :D Congrats!

diane said...

this is brave and wonderful and you are going to rock it.

as a former nanny and current teacher i can relate to your guilt about leaving - i have SO been there.

but i can share from my own experience that life moves on after you do and the energy is set free to move into new spaces for everyone.

the world desperately needs people who are plugged into their passion and deeply happy, so thanks for helping all of us by making this decision! <3

Kara said...

love it.

so brave. :)

Ian Gill said...

Welcome to the club. I've been going 2 years now, a little scary jumping in but once you learn how to live with no money it get pretty easy. Just kidding, kinda.

Suburban Sweetheart said...

Oh, Moorea, this totally speaks to me right now as I'm facing one of the most difficult decisions I've ever made - but one that is, I remain convinced, the correct decision for me right now. Good luck to you, to me, to us as we continue our journeys. I can't wait to see all the beauty that you have yet to contribute to the world.

Anzouya said...

GOOD LUCK with everything! Always the first step is the hardest to make. I'm trying to take this step too, but I'm not that brave yet. You give me the inspiration that I need. Congratulations and Good luck again! :-)

Clare B said...

Good luck, good luck, good luck. Hope it's everything that you've dreamed of, stretching yourself in too many directions is no good for creativity.

julia said...

Is he John Grade?
wow!i love his art.
good luck,moorea.

andrea said...

congratulations! I hope everything goes well

katrina said...

congratulations, Moorea!

Holly Knitlightly said...

Ah, Moorea, I think this is just great news! Good luck with everything!

Anonymous said...

Wow! I think that is so great! I envy you and can relate to how you felt when you said your job felt like it was suffocating you. That's how I feel and I would love to pursue my art career but I am afraid to let go of my financial stability. Good luck!!!!

Bonita Rose said...

I am with u on this journey. xo

Je suis une monstre said...

Oh YES! Oh GOOD LUCK! It's great to decide an 'impossible task' - I have a similar one on the go myself at the moment! I am trying to become a full time creative person - designing and handmaking knitwear accessories and whatever else takes my fancy - I'd LOVE to learn to make clothes and set up a tiny handmade clothing business! The sky's the limit and the world is our oyster :) No time for 'back up plans' - we gotta GO GO GO for our dreams! xxx