You guys, I am FREAKING out with excitement right now. I can't even tell you how much of a weight has been lifted off of my back within the past week, and how suddenly so many awesome things are happening like crazy!
Here is the update.
As of Wednesday night, I am no longer nannying and can call myself a fulltime artist for REAL! Hooray! I was totally scared to do this, to jump in full time when I don't have really any money saved. I was scared that maybe my jobs with jewelry designing, blog designing, and illustration wouldn't pick up steam or that I wouldn't be able to market myself enough to sustain myself well. But HOLY CRAP you guys. I don't know if there is something magical in the air or if God is like, "Ok Moorea. I am really awesome. Seriously, I'm God. I know that you have been through a lot of sh*t in your life and the past few months have been pretty hard on you. But guess what, it's payback time. You have been working hard and have always tried to be kind to people and that's something I dig. So here are some happy things to show you I am proud of you."
BAM! Enter multiple shops around the world suddenly contacting me saying they want to carry my jewelry. I've never had any shops contact me in the past 2 years of jewelry designing. And I have never marketed myself to shops, at least, not yet (it was in my plans!) But, WOAH, within the past 2 weeks, right after I gave my 2 weeks notice for nannying, they just came out of nowhere and told me they dig me and want to carry my stuff. And I'm freaking out with excitement! From a shop in my hometown in California, to a shop in my present hometown of Seattle, WA. From really really badass awesome shops based on the web to awesome shops in Bangkok, Thailand! I'm suddenly blowing up and I did NOT see this coming! This is really what I needed to give me reassurance in quitting my "stable" jobs. I was even contacted by 2 shops within the last 10 hours. 2 in 10 hours! That's 5 in 2 weeks! Isn't that crazy!?!
I think 2 is becoming my lucky number. :)
In other news: Well, I left you a sad note recently about the thing I was scared and sad to have to do over the weekend. I decided to quit my band, The Mopes. They are really awesome, and fun, and sweet boys. But there comes a time in life when communication just becomes difficult for friends who are in different areas of life. They are being pushed towards music and I am being pushed towards different art forms. I feel illustration, blog designing and jewelry designing obviously consuming my life in a really empowering and awesome way. These are my dreams coming true. And music is one of my passions as well. But I don't think God wants me to devote as much of me to music as He wants me to do other things, at least, not right now. I think He wants me to keep music as a hobby, but pursue other arts as careers. I couldn't see this until after I quit the band and cried and cried from the depths of my soul. I am sad that I had to say goodbye to being a part of the band. Our communication was getting muddled, and I think my sadness in other areas of life was hurting the boys and confusing them. And I feel really bad about that. But, now that I have a better perspective, I think my leaving the band will give both them and me a lot more freedom to do what we are meant to do. And there are no hard feelings. I still love those boys a lot. And I hope that now I am just another one of their friends, I can give them better support and friendship than what I could do while being a member of the band. I'm still a big fan of the band <3
I think I lost myself for a little bit this summer. I was trying too hard to figure out how to please friends, employers, crying babies, clients, bandmates, and everyone else, but ended up just miss-stepping it all and sacrificed the essential me in the mess. I am a people pleaser and I don't like quitting. But I finally learned, come Autumn and a few mental break downs along the way, that sometimes the best thing to do for yourself and others is to just say no and recognize when something that was once good has turned sour. I've shed the things that were unintentionally hurting, and I'm back babies! Moorea has been resurrected and she is coming back full force!
So dudes, HERE WE GO! I am officially a full time artist (OMG!) I am in the works of selling my jewelry in a few different and super rad shops, my blog designing is taking off, and illustrations are popping up all over the place. I am going to be ok. I am pursuing my dreams. I'm a tough cookie and I trust that there will always be sunshine after a storm. I can't control my environment, which can sometimes be scary, but other times so badass! :)